Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts

Election hangover in Babylon

08 November 2012

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As the polls were closing, results came quickly in and the victor of our presidential election was announced, I sighed with relief. I'm so thankful it's over, I'm so thankful it was decided quickly, I'm so thankful we have the freedom to participate in the process of choosing our leaders and defining our laws. It's not a perfect system (do I remember the details of the electoral college from 5th grade? no, I do not.), but I believe it to be a just one. For the most part. I think.

The question I struggle with on the day after the day after is... where do we go from here? Where do we meet, exchange ideas, compromise? How does one move past the disappointment of a race lost (or the ecstasy of a race won) and into the realm of a still-broken world that needs hope, longs for grace, aches for love? 

We know a guy, from way back when we were a mismatched Bible college couple deciding on churches based on the contemporary context of the hymnal. He was our friend, but you know, you move and lose touch and only occasionally interact (on Facebook, of course) during things like world-wide catastrophes and presidential elections.

For our old friend, Tuesday was both. And raving rants of exile, Babylon, the suffering of (American) Christians, and the coming tribulations were really too much for my hope-tinted-with-realism heart to bear. I get the pain of defeat, but I don't get the doom. I get the frustration and rage against the machine, but I don't get the end times analogy. I get the "I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore!" But I don't get the, "I feel like we're living in the last book of Jeremiah!" For reals, look it up. It's a doozy.

This is what I wanted to say to him: Even in Babylon, even when the Jews were exiled and living under a dictatorship, God told them to build houses. He told them to plant gardens. He told them to raise up children and see them married. He told them to pray for the peace and prosperity of their city, for if the city experienced a renaissance - a rebirth - so would they! And He said, "I've not forgotten you. This is the plan we're going with. It'll be good, I promise." (I'm paraphrasing.)

The issue of their lives and hearts was so far beyond our petty political process. They were refugees, spiritual exiles, victims of ethnic cleansing! They were not pouting republicans or foot-stomping democrats. And really, all the evil in all the world is so far beyond the results of a free election in a free country (it's quite possible North Korea is living in some sort of last book of Jeremiah black hole).

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But back here in 'Merica, even if your guy won on Tuesday, the problems - and the moral issues that wrought them -  won't go away in a day. And if your guy lost, you're still expected to be an active member of society, still expected to contribute. Whatever result we did or didn't wish for, we have no excuse to bury our heads in the sand.

And I think, for those of us who know and try to follow Jesus (I say try because even still, I sometimes get so lost on the rocky path), we're even more compelled, on the day after the day after, to love more and be more and look more for where God is moving. We join Him there. We cannot run away. We gotta plant those gardens, build those houses, raise up our kiddos and pray for the peace and prosperity of our city. I think this is called Kingdom living: doing what we can to bring a bit of heaven down to earth. 

And I would so much rather try to shine a little bit of heaven's light 'round these parts, than rain down hellfire and brimstone. We've got enough of that here, already.

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How did this election affect you? Got any helpful hints for hope and healing? Boom: Alliteration.

This time (the year before the year before) last year.

22 February 2012

Holidays will do that to you.

Remind you of what was, or what isn't. You find yourself saying, "this time last year" or the year before, or the year before that.  You smile when you think of the first Ash Wednesday your son remembers, more for the pancakes than the ashes. And you walk the aisles of the supermarket, intent on maintaining any semblance of tradition through the years and the moves and the countries.

It's not terribly hard, not really all that sad. But it is movement, it is change, it is a longing for security and steadiness and sanity. It is not wanting to forget but also trying to move forward. It is hope and doubt, rolled into one. It is faith.

The email pings just now, a hotel or an airline or a booking agency. The emails never end, hinting that we should be going somewhere. We will, even if it's the slow steady ascent up the faith mountain, or a drive into the city to claim and wear the ashes.

After all... it's the Person - not the place - we seek. 

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Leaving the orphanage

11 January 2012

I don't think there are more beautiful words in the English than "Guess who left the orphanage for good today?"

Just to be clear, we are not adopting, though we feel the word may apply to us one day. While our family is currently complete, we are open and curious and in wonder about a future that might include another child whom we can give a home to (once we have a permanent home ourselves, that is).

All that to say is, today I read a tweet for a family who's story I've followed for a long time. Their's is unique, and I feel honoured to stand on the sidelines, anonymous, offering up a prayer here or there. And the tweet today? A final goodbye to an orphanage in Ukraine. A new identity. A mother and a father. A home waiting with a brother and a sister, and friends, and a church. A hope and a future.

Wow. Breathtaking words, leaving the orphanage for good. He is a giver of life.


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The hard love

22 April 2011

It's Friday.
I've got five minutes... I think.
Go.

The hard love...

Hard and good. Hard and good. I've said a lot that these go hand-in-hand. So many moments of love that lead us to the hard, but good places. Moving overseas with a young family to do God-only-knows-what was so, so hard, but became (and is) so, so good. The boy growing and going to school on that first day in that first uniform was so hard, but seeing who he's becoming and how he's learning to love and have faith is so good. Giving birth... oh.... so, so, so hard (I could go on and on... the two boys came in typically hard-fought fashion), but afterwards a baby who came directly from God and is ours to love and nurture and protect and teach.... oh, so, so good. Waiting and trembling in hope sprinkled with fear, I've always thought that to be one of the hardest of all. But here in that waiting, I'm seeing how good it really is. The hard, but good ways we wrestle, we learn, we grow, we fall, we get back up, we rejoice, we mourn, we wait.

There's only one reason we do this, we put up with this, and we try again. It's because we love. The only way I can do it is because Someone first loved me. If it weren't for the hard love, I would've given up awhile ago.

Stop.

Yep, that's it. Hard to get that one down for some reason. Think it was the extraordinarily late sleep-in that's making me feel all fuzzy. Back to reality for this mama. Your turn now.


thoughts for this year

03 January 2011

I don't do resolutions. My reason is this: I don't like to fail. So, with that in mind, some thoughts for this year... things I might like to try, might like to do more, or might want to hope for.

write more. 
The husband thinks i should be published this year. I think that it would be nice to be published again, but I also think writing specifically to an audience, on a smart topic, with the hope of being published is a lot of effort for this mom of three - without an actual guarantee of publication. Sounds silly, I know. So for now, I might like to try writing more.

cry and/or worry less.
These things go together. I worry and cry, cry and worry. Or just get sad for no damn good reason. Which leads me to...

swear more.
:)

homemake a little.
Maybe I'll try cooking more. Or maybe I'll try picking up after kids during the day instead of leaving it till after bedtime and then stay up till the wee hours cleaning and then be exhausted the next day... and then the whole crazy cycle repeats itself. Or maybe I'll help the kids with a routine. Or maybe give myself a routine. Maybe I'll find time to scrapbook, or decorate, or paint a small wall. I'm not sure what this will entail yet. But I'd like to try settling in here a little before we move on again.

continue drinking coffee.
This has been something I've discovered that makes me happy, allows me to indulge a little bit, gives me an excuse to go out and meet a friend. It's also where I sometimes end up writing. Or reading. Or praying. So yeah, I plan on continuing this little habit. 

stay healthy.
I made some changes in my life towards the end of the year... eating better, getting out more, being active, that kind of thing. I hope to continue doing it, and I hope to try some new things that will further enable a healthy lifestyle. 

be positive.
Because I'm usually not. And being usually not positive is usually not helpful.

love people more and better.
I want people to feel loved and valuable when they're with me. I want to find ways to serve them, to deepen friendships (or start friendships), to bring smiles and relief. And I want this to flow out of...

loving Jesus more and better.
I started a reading plan on the "essential Jesus". I'm only one day in, so who knows what day 2 or 3 or 194 will bring. But I wanted to read it and dwell on it and fill my brain and heart with it to grow a better love for Jesus. I feel like years 2008-2010 showed me more who He is and allowed me to know Him, rely on Him, and believe in Him in better ways. This year is the love year.

pray.
I like to pray and I hope to do it more this year. I would like to make it a priority. And I would like to include my children more in it. They pray and they do it grandly, but I want to exhibit a prayerful life for them.

move far, far away.
Not that I want to leave all the people here I know and love, but Ireland is our new old home. And I miss it, husband misses it, and children miss it. And we can't wait to go back. This year... sometime, somehow... we return to Ireland. I want to be ready, refreshed, renewed, and raring to go.

follow through.
I don't want to fail at my good intentions anymore. I have birthday cards left unstamped, receipts from last minute trips to target for last minute gifts. I have big plans, and then forget them or ignore them. I'd like to think big this year, and follow through on it. 

belittle less, value more.
Brutal confession coming: sometimes I put myself down, or look at my life and think "what if." I don't wish any of it away and wouldn't change all that much really, but I see that sometimes, when we look at the "what ifs" or the "shoulda woulda couldas", we actually belittle what we have or what we've made or what God has given us. We belittle the gifts and the grace, when we should value them for the gifts and the graces they actually are. Going or not going to grad school = not really a big deal. Going or not going to Ireland = kinda a big deal. Thriving retirement account = not really a big deal (right now). Enjoying and sharing and being thankful for the little money/possessions/things we do have = kinda a big deal. I want to see the true value, not the monetary or worldly value. I want to value what God values and give away the kinds of things He gives away. At least, I hope to do this. It's a big hope.

So I look at this list and chances are, I'll fail at some of them - or most of them - from time to time. But if I could maybe just do one of them, one time, I'll stop thinking of myself as a failure, and celebrate a success, one at a time.

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Compassion Blogging, Take One

11 June 2010

I've recently become a Compassion Blogger, someone who blogs on behalf of Compassion International, hoping to bring attention and support to Compassion and the children they so greatly impact. Today is my first such post, and I have no idea how to do it, really, but here you go. Our chance to make a difference.

Donate to Compassion International Medical Intervention FundAchile is 8. He needs heart surgery. For years he has lived the life of a sick little boy in Burkina Faso, and now, his situation is critical. Compassion has supported Achile through his illness, but now they need our help to see him healed.

To see Achile transported to India and receive this life-saving operation, please click the link above. Any funds received that go above and beyond the $20,449 needed for Achile's surgery will be rolled into Compassion's Medical Assistance Fund.

If you don't have cash, pray, or perhaps blog. Maybe just one person will read this and donate. Who knows? Could just save a life.
More on how Compassion aids children with heart conditions: http://blog.compassion.com/holistic-child-development-civ-heart/

Psalm 45v1

18 June 2008

This blog is for me.  Or maybe, this blog is for you.  

For four years, I have chronicled the journey of our family's move to cross-cultural life and work in Ireland.  I realized today - as I wrote a post for prayer for my son - that I needed a space where words could not be minced and where my own journey from safety to risk could be laid bare.  This is with the hope that you can join me here, too, for my journey is definitely not the only one being taken.

Also, this won't always be as heavy as this first post might feel now.  I hope it to be light and airy and full of life and grace.  It's just that God has brought me to a heavy moment and the need, always the need, to write.

And as for the title of this blog and the purpose... my life verse, only read today for the first time from The Message:

My heart bursts its banks, spilling beauty and goodness. 
I pour it out in a poem to the king,
shaping the river into words...

 
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